Overwhelmed

This is what I do!!
When things aren't going well in my life, I consume myself with work.

Hi! My name is Amber Anique, and I am a Work-a-holic!!!
Sometimes it works to my benefit, like I am able to occupy my free time at work doing actual work...and, prior to my 3 month anniversary, I received a raise...YAYYYY ME!!!

I'll have to let you know in a bit how this is not a positive thing!

Feeling....Hmmm....

Not good or bad at the moment. I guess that's a small upside to my extremities.
Right now I am focusing on me. Apparently, according to my family and friends, it's something I've never done before. Odd, because I thought I did all of the time.
I am no longer in a relationship, which, as of now, I think it may be a good thing.
We broke up on Friday, and so far, I seem to be taking it very well. I guess it helps that I am swamped with work.
I miss him & the baby SO MUCH.
When I wake up, I find myself trying to figure out where I am, and why that alarm is going off. After 20 minutes of trying to adjust, I realize, I don't live with him, he's not next to me the wall is, I won't lean over him and kiss him goodbye as I'm walking out the door to go to work. When I get off from work, I won't go back to "our" apartment...rather, I'll be going to my room in my parents house.
I love him, and I always will...I guess this was just the wrong time for "us".

I'm sad & heartbroke....but, I'll be ok....IT'S "ME" TIME!! LOOK OUT WORLD!!!

Allergy Meds That Can Lead to Suicide?!?!

So, depression has been getting the better of me, despite the fact that everything seems to be getting better.
It's like having another job...on top of being a girlfriend, a "step-mother", a sister, a daughter, and making an attempt to take care of self....I'M EXHAUSTED!!!! WHEW!!! LMBO!!!

Anyway, in my best efforts, I've been keeping up with my blogger family, only to come across Marissa's post on Singulair.
VERY DISTURBING!!!
I've been taking Singulair for the past few years due to an annoying stress cough. After reading this post, I decided to come off of it for a little while and see what happens. What I do remember is when I wrote the post, Suicidal Thoughts, I had taken 2 pills just before I started having those feelings...Connection?!?! I don't know, but, it's worth researching!!! I'll keep you updated, as I continue to cough.