Why?

It seems as if no matter what I do, I can't focus! I want to, and I try so hard, I even get up early to take my meds..to no avail.
One thing I've noticed was taking a break from therapy is not an option for me.
It's as though if I stop, then start again...it's like starting from scratch. And, the same thing goes for my meds.
So why don't I just stick with my routine? I don't know. I guess I'm like everyone else with a mental illness. I start feeling better, and I convince myself that I can do it on my own. Then I start moving backwards...AGAIN!
In many posts I keep saying that I know what I need to do, but in reality, I like to think that this isn't ALWAYS going to be me...FOREVER & EVER...AMEN!
Taking pills every single day, without fail, isn't as easy as it seems. It's not as easy as brushing your teeth in the morning, or bathing, or even using deodorant.