4 Page Letter

Or, something close to it...maybe 3 and a half.
I sat up one night and had a million feelings rolling around through my head. I knew that there was no way for me to ever fall asleep while I was this full. So, I decided to write him a letter.
After, I felt somewhat content, and decided that I would mail it the next morning. To make sure that I did as planned, I placed our addresses on an envelope, sealed it, and put a stamp on it. I placed the letter on my jewelry box, knowing that I wouldn't forget it if placed there.
The next morning, on my way to the pdoc, I got dressed, grabbed the letter and placed it in the mailbox.
After sending it, I knew it was the right thing to do, I felt very proud of myself.
The letter itself was very girly...mostly, expressing a sample of what I felt with our relationship.
Why did I feel good? Because, if all else fails...I can at least say that it was said. Maybe not everything, but most of what I felt at that moment was put down on paper and received by him.
The outcome...hmmmm, I don't really know. I know that he received the letter because I saw it in his bedroom.
He didn't bring it up in conversation, and neither did I. My thoughts is that I made the first move, he should have made the second.
We did end up having an interesting "conversation" about relationships and pride.
My discovery...I'm ready for a real relationship....and, I'm not sure he is ready to be 100%.
This doesn't change my love for him, but it made me understand him a lot more than I did.
I love you Jay!!! :)